I have been thinking about my ex-girlfriend a lot over the past couple of days.
There are two ways in which I can contemplate something - either actively, or inadvertently. When I think of something actively, it takes the form of a statement where I ascertain: "This is what we did," or "this is the part of the disagreement that we were unable to resolve."
Inadvertent contemplation is different. Like a dream, it takes its cue from clever associations that need to be worked out before their meaning can be fully derived.
A couple of facts need to be made apparent before I go on. The former partner to whom I refer first dropped into my life in May 2006. At that point she was living in Huddersfield, a town in northern England.
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It occurred to me a few hours ago that I'd not heard a particular piece of music for some time, a piece connected to the football club I support. It's not a problem, though - I know exactly where to go on the internet to find it.
I now direct you towards the following URL. Turn the sound down if you don't want to wake the neighbourhood!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnHHFWfpoYQ
The football match referred to in the above link took place in Huddersfield, in May 2006. At that point, my life revolved around the place - visiting my South African girl, and desperately trying to source tickets for the away section at the stadium.
This is inadvertent, or unthinking, thinking. My mind is for whatever reason directing itself back to May 2006, but it is not content to uncloak itself and produce a stream of statements to be ascertained. Instead, it pretends to divert itself from the process of conscious thought, only to complete the circularity with a reference to a two-year-old video on the internet.
